Trail Rides and Rock Crawls

The weekend was great, I hung out with friends all weekend. Things were pretty chill on Saturday just out running errands and hanging out with a friend.

Sunday we decided to do a little trail ride and some rock crawling. If you’ve never heard of rock crawling it’s exactly what it sounds like using your truck to climb steep and jagged rocks.

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This was the first time I’d been as my friend thought it would be a great introduction, I had the best time!

There were normal trails, cross trails, 80* point turn trails, and the rock walls were insane!

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There were about 50 Jeeps that had shown up. There is a Jeep Facebook group where someone posts where they’ll be and whoever wants to show up can.

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Everyone kind of took a survey of the land for Jeeps that were similar to them and their experience group to decide which group they be in. We pretty much had ours figured out as we’d talked to everyone before hand.

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Everyone had a radio set to the same frequency so we all could communicate incase something happened or needed to happen. The trails are open to dirt bikes, four-wheelers, and side by sides as well. The really cool thing I thought was when we’d meet a group of other Jeeps they’d radio their convoy and whoever had a small pack had to pull over for the biggest pack. All of these trails are one way, which was a little scary for me. We were a big group so we didn’t have to pull over but it’s a little intimidating seeing the spaces full of rock and dirt you had to pull into, on the sides of huge hills.

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Be prepared to hear a few squeaks, scrubs, and scratching. Nothing that’ll mess up the paint on our trail but the underbody took a few hard hits. I fact we broke a sway bar bolt and lost 2 light cover lenses along the way.

The 2 hour drive home with the doors off was a little trying since it had started to rain and we all got soaked but we were laughing and it helped wash the dust off a little. My face was numb by the time we got back because of my hair blowing on my face. My hair was so dusty when I took it out of the pony tail holder it didn’t even fall for it being so dry. Needless to say washing it that night was a curly tangled adventure.

Although I was feeling a little nauseous by the end because I hadn’t eaten we decided to go out to eat with my friends sister and her husband. I couldn’t eat then either so I felt like a weirdo but I had good reason but I still felt rude. I felt dehydrated which I’m sure is what made me feel so sick. We decided upon a popular Mexican restaurant which sucked because everyone’s food looked delicious! I couldn’t even drink my sangria, which made me even more sad.

If you get a chance to go trail riding or rock climbing I completely think you should. Be careful because things can get a little intense.

What did you do this weekend? 

Fall In Love, Again

It’s been a rough 3 years, I’ve been misdiagnosed until about 7 months ago. The meds I was taking were actually making my bipolar disorder worse.

I’ve fallen out of love with pretty much everything including myself. I’ve felt so numb for so long that I didn’t care if I ate, got out of bed, or some days even shower.

I’ve worked deeply with my psychiatrist for the past few months to make sure I’m being honest. I want to get better because the shell I’m living in isn’t where I want to be anymore.

I don’t want to take medication but I have no choice, I can’t afford to lose another job, trade-in my 6th brand new car in 6 years, or stay in bed for days at a time.

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I broke things off with the (ex) boyfriend because frankly who wants to live with someone having crying fits, anger issues, financial binges, or a general dislike for themselves?

He’d been my rock all year but in a moment I decided to ruin it and then let it all go. So, I’ve taken it upon myself to be single, the rest of my life.

I may be feeling better with my fine-tuned medications but that only helps keep the vicious animal at bay, they don’t actually cure anything. I could still have an episode any time which can lead to sleepless nights, depression, or mania.

I’d love to find someone down the road maybe but it would have to sweep me off my feet to even be considered getting passed the moated concrete wall I’ve so carefully constructed around my heart, which will not be an easy task. With my luck, it would be a knight riding a donkey who likes Opera music (no offense if you like opera).

 

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I want to fall in love again with:

Reading – I would read at least 2 books a month and now I have a small stack sitting on my crowded bookshelf just waiting to have a crease in their spines.

Painting – Painting was something new I picked up before the worst transpired. I can’t draw stick people but I can make lines, shapes, and TRY to paint what’s in my mind.

Art – My favorite place is the art museum, I love everything about it. The unique pieces, sculptures made with methodical precision, the smell. That last one may sound a bit odd. There’s an endless pond in two spots on the property where I love to write and shady spots near the pavilion.

Running – I love hearing my feet hit the pavement, although Time has ticked by and I’ve gained weight so it won’t be as easy as those 7 minute miles I use to run.

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Writing – I had a freelance writing business that I let tank. I was doing great because it was paying the bills. Then I’d get into my moods and that stickiness doesn’t keep clients. Now that I’m feeling better I’m going to try my hand to build it once more. In the meantime, I’m going to pour everything into this little space. I’m hoping to monetize later but for now, I’ll be nurturing it.

Adventures – I went to the Tennessee mountains last month and although it was cold, wet, and rainy a friend and I found ourselves by the Chestoa river In the Cherokee National Forest. The water was flowing, the branches we’re dancing, and the sand squished under our feet. I felt the spark light my spirit and I craved more.

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What do you want to fall in love with again?

 

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